Do you know what am going through?

Mommy, Do you know what am going through?
Am fighting with my self everyday.
A fight going through my head.
Eat this, Don't eat this, Throw this up, Try to keep this down, Dont cry, Dont show your weak.
And when you talk a bout my gay friends and how it's 'wrong' for them to post pictures of them kissing on Facebook
Mommy.... Am pan and you KNOW that I support my friends and what they do.
Why do you say this?
It makes me fight with my self even more.
Just please stop.